Thursday, November 23, 2006
i'm so dead..just came back..went to swensens at the Changi Airport with Mrs K and the rest of the ppl..saw sharul and his family there..omg, he's so cute to the max!so, i ordered as usual, Salmon n Mushroom Pasta..that is so my all-time favourite..luckily, the place was not packed by people..if not, they will be irritated with our wackyness..then, came dessert..Mrs K decided to order EarthQuake..if i could remember the flavours that we ordered,Chocolate, Strawberry, Cookies and Cream, Mango, Lime Serbert, Chocolate Fudge, Macademia Nut and Chocolate something.. haha, can't remember the last one..i was bloated real bad just now..i can't even dare to look down to my stomach..we went shopping for accessories..Mrs K, bought earrings mostly..i bought a necklace with my initial..and 2 magazines..we had to separate in the middle of the walk, as me,dee and cheryl are going back by the train.. leila's going clubbing with asri, su, azimah, diana and hidayah are taking the skytrain, and ina as well as ida going home by the bus..dat sums the whole evening but truly, i couldn't forget the meeting during my 2 hours lunch..dee had meet up with zul's ex jannah for a conference at coffee bean..talking about zul's past with her and many other gals as we mention..suhail, their fren is there as well as me..i'm there like some sort of witness la ah..i did budge in during their conversation..agreeing to wat jannah had said to dee..i was shocked that zul is dat type of guy..and seriously, he doesn't deserve a gal like dee..she's too sweet and kind to be taking granted like dat..and it's as if she has no say in any of the crap dat zul had done to her..i feel like crying..i've been in that situation once..being cheated and taking for granted..but now i just can't take it anymore..enough is enough..luckily, god has meet me with a guy who truly loves me..understands me?well, maybe taking a step ahead..i have split personalities so it may be hard for him to understands me..during the conference, i realized dat, we gals could really fall for a guy who doesn't truly appreciates you..he may take you for granted and at the same time he can be a sweet talk motherfucker..i'm not saying all this just to discriminate those guys out there..it's just that, they really go overboard by hitting and cheating on us..maybe it's just their asshole way in showing that they love you..you know and i know that's crap..sometimes i wonder, is it just infatuation or true love..in the mean time, i will have all my life to figure what i really wants in finding a right guy..i'm not saying that he's not the one for me..but there's fate you see..honestly, from the bottom of my heart, i would really open up to whoever truly wants me as much as i want him..if you're out there, please come to me fast.. before it's too late.
Maryam Mustaffa blogged @ 9:32 PM
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